latest up date

tgl 12 Oktober 2010 g cek rutin k dr. Hardi Susanto,
baby Kei agak kecil ternyata, hanya 2360gr saja..
dan ternyata karena mata minus g yang cukup parah (terakhir tes minus 7)
g dinyatakan harus ceasar.
Karena ceasar, maka harus dimajukan 2 minggu sebelum due date yg semula dijadwalkan tgl 14 november 2010.
hiks..

beruntung jg ikut senam hamil yoga tiap sabtu di RS Royal Taruma.
dari konsultasi dan tanya jawab dokter g tau kalo minus di atas 6 sangat beresiko untuk melahirkan normal, karena pd saat ngeden, korne mata bisa copot atau pecah (seramnya...)

makanya pas selasa lalu waktu kontrol g tanya dokter, dokter bilang 1 minggu sebelumnya pasiennya ada yang mata kirinya mengalami pecah kornea karena dia ga kasih tau kalo minus matanya parah..
ya, dokter juga ga nanya
kudunya dokter tanya : ibu matanya minus ga? minus berapa?
hari gini emang kita yg harus proaktif ya...

ya sudahlah, daripada buta (amit2) mending keluar uang banyakan buat ceasar dan siap2 dioperasi (so scary..) trus semoga tar after operasi g cepet kentut & ga gitu nyeri bekas blek nya.. hiks

dokter bilang g bisa choose tanggal, antara 1-4 november, ga ada tanggal bagus..
ya, g mengimani tiap tgl itu bgs d...g udah berdoa yg terbaik untuk Kei.
Jd g putusin ( belum final2 banget ) buat di ceasar tgl 2 november saja..biar Kei sama daddy nya ultah di tanggal yg sama. hehe
tp beda sebulan...

semoga semuanya lancar pd waktunya, amin

we are moving

we are moving from apartment to new rent house at Tomang Utara
I am glad I have big bed now & feels like home because compare to my apartment the house is much much bigger.
I, Jan and little Kei's room is in 1st floor, Ike's room is in 2nd floor.

Things that I thank God for our new house is :
1. we have big kitchen
2. there are living room
3. a room for Purezento's stuff
4. a room for maid
5. finally working well air conditioner
6. near by my antie's house

Things i missed from my old place :
1. There are no mosquitos
2. Dont need sandals at home
3. If we have problem with water, we just call maintanance
4. So close to toilet ( I wake up at least 2 or 3 times at night to pee )
5. more secure parking lot.

well, everything has good side and bad side right?

btw, tommorow we will have lebaran holiday, yeaaay!
can't wait for Jan to come home
happy holiday everybody!

hello there..

long time i dont post anything here..
yeah..i am a good writer & dont have many interesting things to write down
today my boss is not in the office for 9 days ahead
it don't really effect me since i still have to come to office in 7.30 in the morning and stay until 16.30 in the afternoon & doing my job.
maybe there wont be plus plus job if he is not around but still i hate to wake up in the morning, have a shower & have an hour trip to get here.
i am becoming a very lazy woman lately
i dont like to move, my stomach even haven't become big
easy to get tired, easy to get dizzy, want throw up almost everyday

i am thinking to quit job after labor with several reason :
1. i want to see my baby grow
2. i dont like to see my baby hugging other people like babysitter or pembantu that seems dont really care about cleaness.
3. i heard a story about baby sitter who rent baby to a bagger while the baby's mother is working
4. heard another story about baby sitter who gave sleeping pills to baby so it wont be annoying her.
5. i want teach many things to my baby
6. if i keep working full time, i only can meet my baby at the night :(

but i still need income...
i need to find another part time job so:
1. i will still have money by my own
2. i wont get bored & feel i am useless

i hope God will lead my way ^^

marriage is falling in love many time..with the same person

so sweet this title is
especially when it comes from a man's mouth

even in my dream, i dont think my hubby will make that kind of speech for me whole life
he wont even try
i will always remember he even don't try harder to remembered our wedding vow.
he said his vow without looking at me ( yes, i am a lil bit sakit hati )
he said a vow to church bench and to the book at his hand
not to me...i feel so pitty
i did nervous too but i can remembered that short vow.
but, what can we say, i already get married to him.

i dont know, maybe he dont feel so much love to me
i feel ignored sometimes..
not much attention, not much love...
he just didn't show it or he just didn't feel it...

another week has gone

yes! times do fly
akhirnya jumat lagi
i really dont wish time going as fast as it is now
but sometimes when there is nothing to do
or there's only routine job
we all got sick

i am tired thinking tommorow i have full day job
teaching japanese & indonesian
i only can cheer myself
chayo, chayo!
we have to save for our baby

one hour to go
i am happy because i dont have to feel any longer boring day
have a nice weekend everybody :)

mati kebosanan

argh..emosi
klien diminta surat jalan ma faktur ga kirim2
kerjaan g dah kelar
ga tahu mau ngapain bengong 9 jam disini :(
pengen pulang n leha2 aja rasanya
hiks, bos g ilang ga masuk kantor
argh...bosan
4.5 jam lg sebelum pulang :(
oh my!

pondok si boncel

bday celebration

finally kesampaian jg buat ngadain pesta ultah di panti asuhan
karena di gereja pernah dibagiin brosur, jadi g milih PONDOK SI BONCEL ini
kata org2 si panti ini bnyk donaturnya
mungkin bener sii tp anak2nya keliatan sangat haus perhatian & kasih sayang

MC nya Griselda
trus ada g & Maya yg kolaborasi buat ngadain acara ini
Chacha, Ike, Endro, Jan & Carina ikut juga

Acaranya games, hias cup cakes & bagi2 goodie bag
mungkin karena mereka masih kecil jd acaranya agak semeraut & agak susah diatur
belepotan fla pas hias cup cakes & ada yg berantem juga

Tp seru kok, kapan2 mau adain acara gini lagi ah..

kucel

argh emosi g
kemaren jalan ma maya
celebrating her bday
mkn2 di PI
menatang2 dia dah kurus n bergaya sekarang
ketemu g dia langsung bilang:
ce, anakmu pasti cowok, soalnya kucel
sigh, kurang asem, g emang ga suka dandan dudunk!
g dah mengorbankan 415.000 g buat beli foundation make up forever
sial seenaknya blg g kucel
menyebalkan bgt!
mentang2 pk high heel tinggi n g sendal teplek
trus baju bergaya & g dress bali
hiks-hiks, aku sakit hati

me, miss piggy

duuuu kok g berasa laper mulu ya?
pagi ini sudah melahap :
1. 1 bungkus kecil bissmart
2. 1 risoles
3. 1 potong bika ambon
4. 1 smoked beef sandwich
dan skrg jam 11 kurang 10 menit g kelaparan...hiks2
ada apa gerangan dengan perutku? :(

when you decided to get married with someone...

why people want to get married?
1. we are human, we can't live alone
2. we need to share, in good times and bad times, family is important but they can't stay rest of our life with us, friends are important but they have their own life
3. we need to have children, Christian said the propose of married is to have children.
4. etc...

in younger age, we dreamt to get married with handsome, rich and gentlement prince of charming, but the fact in real world: there is no such a fairy tale
when you are getting older, you maybe still wanna get married with good looking guy, or married someone rich, or good person is just fine for you
It is to difficult to find Mr. Perfect who has all 'good criteria' in one package..

what i want to share here is about one annoying man (my relative) who bother me so much.
he is old, forthy something but really doesn't behave at all
he is crazy of getting married
hurrying her ma to make a party for him
he even dont have a proper job
but got new house & car from his nice brother (how lucky he is)
after all his attitude is so..... unbearable
he is like a child, mommy should accompany him to find a shirt & suitcase
mommy should pay all his party cost
mommy arrange prewedding photoshot for him
if 'mommy' is not asking me to accompany him too, it will be fine for me
last saturday, i have to go to shopping mall with them until 9 pm
that almost killed me
i was exhausted, i had to work in the morning, then have to spare time for this childish person, sungguh tak rela
my stomach was so hurt me that night that i worried so much about my baby

today he is taking his prewedding photoshoot
he went to bridal with my lil sis, can you imagine, forthy something man should have accompany to have photo shoot...
why don't he ask someone to accompany him while making love?

i feel pitty for her wife to be...
i hope she has tons of patient.

tok, tok, tok...i knocked on the table...
i am pregnant but i have to share
girls, find a responsibility man, don't look at his family's richness,
if he is not willing to work, it's useless...

sabar...oh sabar...

g baru bilang ma ike kalo g ngerasa lbh sabar pas hamil
kemaren kesabaran gue diuji
supir yang udah g kasih kemudahan masuk siang hari sabtu n minggu
pas minggu kemaren jam8 blm nongol
padahal g hrs k gereja jam segitu...
g misa jam 8.30
g telpon dia blg kesiangan, oh my! i can't wait for him
alhasil g berangkat sendiri...
semalam g sms dia, kalo nyampe rumah langsung naik ke apartemen buat angkutin barang
eh, td pg g liat sms dia blg, bukannya hr ini dia libur?
oh my gosh! kapan g blg dia libur?
g bilang kmrn dia libur aja, masuk selasa gantinya
mana ada bilang senin libur?
ampun ga sih?

trus hr ini g dpt email sotoy dr lakinya temen
oh plis, org2 jgn sok akrab d...bkn best friend pk judging org
meni sedih catetannya Lus.. Tp ga percaya kl elo py finansial problem, paling cuma tabungan elo ga sebanyak dl sebelum married hehe..
Married emang ngabisin uang sih tp emang perlu jg kan, sekali seumur hidup lg jd ya, kalau duit byk sih, ngeluarin uang byk sekali sih ya gpp :) nanti jg uang byk lagi Lus, elo kan berdua ker, ada usaha jg, ya nanti jg ya ngumpul lg. Lagian kalo elo ga py uang mah ga bkl an maen2 ke bali, kt jg belum pernah hehe..
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oh plis, g tahu di dunia ga semua org menyenangkan
but judging others you dont know much is so.......annoying yet unfair.

g terlalu sensi mungkin but just dont like people who like to mencampuri urusan org lain...
lagian dia mana tahu kondisi keuangan g yg sebenarnya..

6 tahun...

6 tahun yang lalu
sebuah kehilangan besar dalam hidup gue
orang yg paliiiiing g sayangi harus g relain pergi
sampai detik ini, i keep asking
what if mom still here...
what if mom still alive today
i can makes her dreams come true, not all but part of them i think..
today, she already left for six years,
but she still living in my hearts, my mind, & my memorries
she is the best thing i ever received

GBU always mom,
may God always showering you with happiness in heaven.

rude people

don't have any respect to others
just think about themself
so hate this kind of people...

Things around you...

sometimes time is like flying

baby is becoming a child
children are teenager now
we are become older day by day..
you dont even recognize that everything is changing...

it is so sad seeing people around you are not belong to you anymore
what you can keep for yourself only yourself , your spouse & God

i am thinking a lot lately..
even you try hard, you cant make everything the way you want

i made up my mind to let it be...
just follow the wind flow..
and dont wanna stuck here
i have my own future & my own happiness

so trauma........

kemaren dapet kabar kalo yichong, suaminya tante, masuk RS karena jatuh..
g pikir jatuh ya jatuh, ternyata bukan jatuh biasa...
bukan jatuh biasa karena dia udah pusing duluan baru jatuh
pas jatuh kepentuk mulut dan hidung, trus ngocor darahnya
kata tante si banyak...trus yichong pingsan
tante bilang si getting better...
tapi semalem ike ngetok kamar g, katanya yichong dipindahin k icu
darahnya drop parah & butuh 12 drum darah (ike memang terlalu dramatis)
alhasil kita nyebar2in info via fb,bbm k org2 sp jam 2 malam
i hope yichong will getting better soon...
let's pray for him
GBH.

apes oh apes

tangan g kena luka bakar lagi..
kali ini yang kiri
tepat di pergelangan tangan waktu g lagi goreng perkedel jagung
sakit? ga usah ditanya lagi...
sekarang lagi melendung n gateeel luar biasa
g ga tahan ah
tar mau k dokter
wish me get well soon

good friend & not-good friend

i really dissapointed by some friends..
i invited them to come to my wedding & they dont come either dont say a word about the absence.
i think i ve mistaken thinking they are friend but they are not...

my RESOLUTION

telat banget yaaa..........hehe
RESOLUSI g tahun ini
bulan Agustus beli rumah baru

WISH ME LUCK! ^^

new chapter

happy new year...:p
telat banget ya...hehehe

sibuk banget ni...
udah H - 4
cepatnya waktu berlalu...

blm sempet review apa yang udah dicapai tahun lalu
dan belum bikin resolusi juga...
soon deh...
just wish me luck ya sabtu ini
may God bless me jd smua lancar, amen

so uneasy..

feeling blue today..
why life seems so difficult for me?
i know i should feel gratefull but i dont feel that way now..
just forgive me God

i feel unsattisfied with one person
i cant tell
i hope i dont have to deal with him many times in my life
just dont like him or you may say i hate him a little bit..